What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

What is your best forbidden sex story that felt so right?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Why do Indian parents force their kids to do stuff?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I was very sick at this time too.

Who then, do I blame.?

Why do trans people get so deeply offended when a stranger misgenders them, especially when it's a first encounter? I've been socially transitioned for 4 years and it just feels like a waste of energy to be so hurt by it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She married twice! .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

What explanations do flat earthers have for the shape of our planet? If they do not have any, why should their opinions on this topic be considered credible?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Especially a lifetime of it.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Is it true that people who are possessed by demons cannot see them until the demon is cast out? What is the reason for this?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Would this be the day?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Do you think the beginning of movies is often better than the rest of the film? Is this a common opinion or do others share this view?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As a teacher, what's the most inappropriate experience you've had with a student?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Hello,hope y'all doin good, i came to Quora to share my strange story , a very weird one , a story when luck smiled at me ,maybe u will enjoy it , let's begin,have fun... A year ago ,I was a real porn addicted(btw I was 18) ,but never had sex before, I don't have a gf I didn't try to find one even ,always thinking to go to find a sex worker but then I just don't , everyday watching different bodies getting fucked and everyday enjoying. One day, I was watching porn, a big ass lady with big boobs ,just after seeing her the image of my female cousin poped in my mind, (let's introduce her : she's 35 years old , very big ass , nice boobs ,not very big but nice,always wearing tight clothes , she's divorced ) and I thought of me fucking her ,I never had sexual desires for her but now I do days went by and when I met her I was so horny ,I couldn't stay with the family cz my penis was clearly erected , I realized this is my first time I get horny for one of my family ,it not illegal in my country.well to make a long story short( if u want details just text me I will tell u 😊),I decided to give her signs that I want to fuck her,finally I decided to have sex and with my cousin , I thought it is the best beggining for me, i started touching her when I came across her in a narrow place , make her feel my hard cock when we hug , I thought it will hard and I will be ashamed but no , I felt nothing and she said nothing , probably she thought it was by mistake,anyways, I decided then to talk with her about sex, waited for her to be alone in a room and talk with her, I confessed everything about me watching porn and addicted..etc,she said it's normal and u are growing up and u must have sex,well at that time I was like whaaat????? Well I didn't control myself and asked her for sex ( horny like I Ve never been before) she said that she will think Abt it ,2 weeka went by then she called me ,telling that she reserved a room in a hotel and we meet tonight ,we met,and bruuhh, sex is great , I mean, I had to find a pirstitue ,what I was waiting for to have such a feeling ????, I will never forget that night, I started kissing her she was kissing hard ,she misses sex so bad , she sucked my dick and swallowed my semen ,I felt I'm in a dream , then when fucked ,her ass was very big and the anus was open ,didn't struggle to get my hard cock inside it , she was obviously missing sex , she was shouting ,fuck me yh fuck me , I go fast after every word until I cum , we did that 3 times , then we went to her pussy , using condoms I fucked her so hard the moans were higher , everything was perfect ,in the end I asked her to lick her body , licked pussy ,ass, boobs,then she sucked my cock until we sleeped ,all I know that she was dirty ,well before even having sex with her I knew she is an open minded woman , and a woman that looks that she donesnt know anything , but she knows everything, but never expected having sex with her ,well she was horny and that helped...but no one of us regretted that sex ever.. We still have sex from time to time ,and I started having sex with sex workers , joining threesomes..etc If u want pics of her text me.

Put me off passion for life!!

Im still living with it.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

What isइस संसार में पहले भागवान आया की इंसान?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why is it rare for someone to despise both the Democrats and Republicans?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

How was your JEE Advanced 2024 result?

So, i spoilt her more .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Why do men like BBW? What is the attraction?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

What is the reason for the high rate of unmarried individuals in America, particularly among males?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I don,t even have a pension.

I write beautiful poetry .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

This is soul school!.

I have no regrets .

I will be 64.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I couldn’t, believe it.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I think the readers, may guess!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I was 9 years of age.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

When she asked me how she looked .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I waited trembling.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Comes on , in middle age.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

All the time i was locked up.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He knew the spot.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And i lived it daily.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But, we were locked up after school.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But ive been too sick for many years..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She wouldn,t have been !

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I could never make a relationship work though!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

My family never makes their pension either.

But it wasn’t much.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She found it foreign!.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

What did i know ?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She loved him until the end.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

So whats the point in blame.

We were not on the streets..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

One cannot live in the past .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

It was going to be , some day.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I said to her

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Why did i forgive my father ?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was seconnd youngest,

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

(And it was in our own minds.)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

We all went to grammer schools

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He resisted the act ,that day.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I was scared of men, in general

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Ive learnt so much.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I never cut or harmed myself..

She was in good health!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My life is so biszare .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..